Everybody that knows me knows I have some sort of obsession with criminal profiling and serial killers.
About two years ago I saw and read everything there was to read and see about Theodore Bundy, one of the most infamous (and handsome, yes sorry not sorry) serial killers in US history. I found his story and personality to be fascinating. After a little more than a year of studying criminal profiling, I found this other book about Bundy. IM NOT GUILTY, based on interviews that Al Carlisle (Ph.D in Clinical Psychology) did on Bundy in order to get a psychological report and profile from him the first time he was arrested and until he sentenced to death.
What I loved about this book is that Bundy tells his story from his own point of view, his feelings, his experiences, his traumas and his pain. You realize that many of the documentaries they did about him are wrong in many ways and try to exaggerate things that didn’t really play an important part on his development as a serial killer. It amazed me how so many little details in his life played such an important part in the development of his obsession to kill, rape and torture.
The scary part is, I think most of us can identify with some of the experiences that Bundy tells in his story. For example struggling to fit in as a child or daydreaming when things weren’t going well.
Maybe I didn’t dress as well as the other kids but, by God, I was going to be as smart as them. i knew I was intelligent and it was always a mystery to me why others didn’t recognize it.
Something that I loved about Ted Bundy’s personality was this charisma that he always showed, even after being convicted. He had spent some time in law school and he decided to be his own lawyer and plan his own defense. His charisma was contagious, he was almost magnetic.
However, this book made me see that this side of him was totally fake, it was a mask, an act. Inside he felt stupid, he felt like the eternal misfit, like he would never be loved by anyone.
An impressive lie that incites interest is better than boring truth
I really recommend this book to whoever likes serial killers, criminal profiling or Ted Bundy. It’s light, its short and its super interesting.
If you’d like more recommendations for books about serial killers or criminal profiling feel free to message me in instagram or twitter.